Sunday, March 20, 2011


Disregard most of that last notice. I will not leave my best friend.

But I know now.

Five Stages

You saw it coming. It was a reaction I'm going through the five stages.

A true friend wouldn't have left you in your time of need. A true friend would have dug his feet in and staid and waited. I didn't know what to're right, the robot is real.

Up and down, no pleasure, no need to eat. Why is unimportant.

I'll wait for a sunny day and leave a note.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

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Some people believe they're above others. I've never felt that, although I've been tempted before. Some people believe they're here to rid the world of those they cannot stand. They're wrong. Will continue to be wrong. No matter how successful they think they are, until they face their own truth they won't understand.

I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm not sure where to go from here, but my life is steadily getting better everyday. I have the most wonderful woman, the kindest family, and the task to keeping their house hold well. Right now I've high blood pressure and am pretty lethargic because of medication. But I'm sure I'll even out in a few days.

No matter how much you try to destroy me I will resist the fear. I've been beaten down enough in my life. I know someone who has better things to do, but won't, for some strange reason...I guess life is what you make it. And if that's your life, I can't tell you you're wrong. You'll just have to find out sooner or later.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

oscillation at end

I feel lost here, not crying in my room but wondering where and when.

I feel as if those cursory glances were stolen, misread when I tell truth.

I envisioned tackling and changing how they do business.

The men with their thumb drives like mine. I remember the lies they'd tell. Just to get another sell.

I can't take from people, and perhaps, then some do pity. But I never use, abuse. If I do it's without understanding.

Some would call me a robot, but that's not true either. Zombie? Nah. Tell me straight and I'll do what it is you want.

I won't lie that my mind lingers, wanders through permutations. I build and build and then am crushed under the weight.

For a season I have no reason, and then the cycle expunges my hopes. But some day that cycle will stall, and never come again.

oscillation at end.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Beyond the Edge of Insanity

Sometimes, those of us who are born into society don't seem to fit it's particular nature. They look around themselves, and ask..."What am I doing here?" and then they ask "What are we doing here?" and sometimes, the answer they find, scares the hell out of them.

But then, then they realize that the ebb and flow of space-time allow for the fractal patterns of all life to change, however slightly, to affect for the greater good.

When they forget that, and they become so distraught--and afraid for all those they love--they start to try and help people understand what they see. Sometimes it's overbearing, because we've all been taught not to question--but to make statements.

Why do we fear answers?

Recently, I've been learning to stop fearing. And to stop hiding. And to remember the heart of gold we're all born with.

So excuse this rough transition.

I love you, even if you don't know me.

I love you, even if you hate me.

Because even if you come from a different background, or have different hair color...if the world was populated with me, all we'd be doing is asking questions. So thanks. Thanks for being there.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I'm Not Mecurial

Dear Friends,

Ever see the world as the flow of information?

Everything is a network.

I snapped. Not mentally, but spiritually. Information broke me.

Ignorance is bliss, after all.

All I want now is land, a place to grow my own food.

Sovereignty, though, will always come down to who pulls the trigger the fastest.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Drop the Bomb

So, I've never really stated when Corrode EP would be done. Because it's one of those things that will be ready when it's ready. And you know, the tutorial is going to be sweet for fans and noobs alike. "DTTA" will be responsible for this part.

"DTTA" will do the Hubbers Newb Guides before I even start on the music tutorial (I've made one before..) because I figure it'll help me iron out any quirks, and give me that much more experience in hopes that it'll be a polished product.

This ENTIRE month I'm re-organizing, re-grouping, so I can assault HubPages in February. This is intentional, I'll admit. However, if I can just get a damned rhythm down, I'll be much more effective with my time and not feel so internally pressured.

I'm also doing some therapy writing. I plan to write a novella. It possibly will simultaneously launch with Corrode E.P.

Tentatively titled "Denial of Heart," it will be set 15 seconds from now. I'm doing lots of research. It builds upon older and (so far) incomplete material, but will do well to be first anyway, since it'll give people a taste of what's to come.

What about the plot?

Well, can't give away too many secrets. We'll just call it a "murder mystery."
I've had it boiling in my head for months, and because I've proven to myself it's quite trivial to hammer out ~3000 words every hour or two, I don't think this short book will gum up the already crazy mechanics of this release schedule.

Besides, it'll help test my "MediaPak" theory. (You'll see.)

Anyway, thats it for now. DTTA is still in full swing; I'm busy building it's brand recognition by creating content that will be useful to many newcomers. No need to thank me---information wants to be free.

Until our next intersection in space-time,